In Reverie

ugh!!
i miss you.
but i promise that more than anything im happy that youre happy.
i just cant help but miss you.

not talking to you has never been easy.
so just again for the record, im sorry.
i really hope you dont give up on the
likelihood of our friendship...

i miss you

someday with a beard
to meet someone so
cool* i can hardly stand
it and i can be myself
with no revisions...

it will happen.

*my definition of cool is unlike most

...i wouldn't really though.
weekend was good.
everyone must see lars and the real girls its amazinggg!
this week has been very busy so far, catching up on a semester worth of work it feels like.
im going home on friday to see les miserables with my mom. its our favorite!
im vrrry excite. hah.
back to framinghamtonville until thanksgiving breaaak!
i like going home sometimes. but i also like coming back. so breaks work out very well for me.
im going to teach kristen to play chess sometime this week, i like chess a lot.
i tried to play it online the other day, and i had a human oponent and for some reason i got really nervous and closed out. it was weird.
i like the way i type on this thing. lots of awkward punctuation. if i cant do it here. where can i?

hah kBYE!

Its finally here! The long weekend I've been waiting for. :)

Kait and I are going to see Lars and the Real Girl tonight, I'm so psyched! I think we're going to the cheesecake factory too for deliciouso chicken stuffed corn tortillas.

Tomorrow I'm working 9-4 then heading home! I think I'll see Mike, yay!

Then Sunday is the big Richard family raking event, any excuse to get together I guess.

I'll be home probably all day Monday too, hopefully see Jesse (maybe a hike, what do you think?). And lots of hanging with Mom and Dad. <3

I'll be back Tuesday am for registration.

:) kbye.

blah
the newish against me! is good.
ive listened to it all day.
im bored and i have class in about 20 minutes.

So things are okay.
I'm approaching this week with nothing but optimism.
That means to that things can't really get all that bad.
I'm getting heathier. I was finding that eating food in the caf was making me feel gross.
Mostly because the food is gross for you.
So I'm sticking with the basics for awhile. Sangies, veggies, fruits, real food.
I went to Trader Joes the other day to discover that its pretty cheap!
So I'm really being enabled in this quest for real, organic foodsies.
I'm also going to the gym, for the energy boost and endorphins.
At Trader Joes yesterday I got these fantastic items:









alright. Im ready for this week to fly by.
The long weekend is going to be well recieved.
I have to work Saturday morning and afternoon.
Then I may go home or wait till Sunday morning.
Sunday my dad's side of the family is all going to my grandparents to help rake.
They have a huge yard, and we are all supposed to bring an old outfit to make leaf-dummies of ourselves. Haha that might be cute, like 15 stuffed family members :)
I'm a little nervous to head home, becuase I haven't been back since Lilly passed away.
My goal is to have a little memorial for her with some of my friends and family.
She deserves it and I really want to do something for her.
Strange as it sounds, I think it would be nice.
I'm also hoping to see my friends from home and maybe pop in on friends from camp! :)

I'm heading to bed early. Night-night.

thisisaramblingtypeofpost...


so things have been kind of a drag lately.

Last week we had to put Lilly<3 down.
:(

She was 14 (the vet said about 80 in cat years) and she was slowly getting really sick. We got her when I was 6, I had been begging for years for a cat and finally they gave in.

We got Lilly my amazing tabby cat (and her slightly less amazing brother Max who in later years ran away.. to the circus perhaps?). She was the single best pet there ever was, filled with personality, love and purrs she was easily my best friends in the animal kingdom and probably the human kingdom too. I love[d] her so much, and we never really evern spoke words. Its going to be to strange without her at home. I haven't been back yet so I'm not sure how I'll take it.
My mom and dad buried her beside our deck in a garden. In the spring we will plan lilies. My mom put her collection of heart-shaped rocks over Lilly's resting place. She will be sorely missed.

Besides that obviously getting me down, I'm bumming out about my friend situation. This year is different. Kristen and Jenna are going to Italy next semester which leaves me down 2 best friends and one amazing room mate. I hope I get to hold onto my room without a rando-replacement.

I feel like I'm missing out on having a guy friend. Not a boyfriend. The longer I'm single the more I realize that having a boyfriend (or girlfriend) is a sorta strange concept.. I guess I just dont like feeling dependent or something, i dont know. Anyway I miss not having guy friends at school. The tiny population that are not dude-guys aren't stepping forward, maybe they didn't get the applications I sent out? ...joking. I could just use more friends I think.


blah. bed.

miss home a little today.

I'm feeling a bit on the sick side of life. I hope I'm all cleared up for my big weekend in Amherst! Emily is turning 21!! And I'm doing what any good friend would do and helping her celebrate to ring in the new year. The plan for the weekend:

Friday- Work at My Gym
Class till 12:20
Off to UMASS!

Saturday- Collect myself
Head to Gardner
Do things, visit friends (let me know if you'll be in the area)

Sunday- Wake up early
Drive back to Fram
Work at 9:15

So about this job. Its a place called My Gym http://my-gym.com/ its a kids gym that helps to devlope gross-motor skills and things along that line. Mostly my job entails focused kinesthetic activites for children ages 6 months-9 years. I'd prefer to work with old kids but this is a pretty cool job nonetheless. However is doesn't stand up to Applewild! <33

Thats all for now really..

back at school, i love my room and mate its all so nice. i hope this year i get visitors and friends to come spend the night.

so im not really ready to sleep. and i got an IM from jesse today and i cant stop thinking about him. i really do miss him so much. this is my first time in college without a boyfriend, no one to say sweetdreams or tell about my day.. but its okay, i need this. i really do. im really trying to work on myself and become a refined, deeper version of myself.

i have so many goals for this year:

1. to meet new people
2. become more spiritually minded
3. spend less time on the computer
4. read and learn a lot
5. refine my personality
6. study up on my political stances
7. be nice to people and myself

all of them are important to me, and are things i really want to work on.

I really am thankful for all the people in my life and the amazing oppurtunities i have.

I'm a mix bag of emotions, what else is new.
I hate the end of summer.
I'm not looking forward to school, I never do.
But once I'm there I'll be okay.
I also hate hang overs, so I think I'll chill out on drinking.
I miss my friend, although I'm happy with the way things are.


I went to the beach today with the girls.
I got some sun, sun makes everyone look nicer.

this post is bullshit.. haha I'm going to clean my sespool(sp) of a room.

:P laya

Summer is ending too soon and I'm freaking out per usual.
Its had its ups and downs but in all its been a very memorable summer.

I wish I had more time..

amazing week/weekend

wednesday was the 4th of July. there was no camp so all the old ladies (Mom, Joanne, Jeannine, Anne, and Martha) and I went for a hike. afterward Emily's family had a cookout. it was kind of rainy which fucked things up a little but at least i didn't have to work.

afterwards emily, olivia and i went out into the depths of ashburnham to party with mike and friends at his lakehouse. we had a great time, i'm so psyched to be meeting new people.

thursday we had camp and i hung out with the ladies at night.

friday last day of session 1 at camp, unbelivable that two weeks went by so fast. kind of a bummer, i adore this job. after work i went to centergy, my favorite class at the gym.

olivia and i went back out to the lakehouse, had such a fun night. a couple of the guys lead an acoustic sing-a-long definitly a highlight to the night, ontop of a rediculous game of kings. <3

we wound up staying over and left early to get olive to work on time. I worked 3-10 at friendlys and stepped waaaay outside the box when i saw a handsome boy come in, he was obviously working because he came in with a large group of mentally challenged folks. needless to say i thought he was cute, and my manager suggested I give him my number because he comes in often and she noticed how sweet he is. But i was like no thats rediculous im too shy for anything like that. somehow everyone got together and convinced me to write down my name and number and my manager took it and brought it over to him. I guess he was flattered and all but i'm not expecting a call, it was more or less a way to let myself get out there a little. haha mannn oh man.

afterwork Jen was gonna have a few people over so I texted Mike and he decided to come along, we met at friendlys and headed over. at first it was really chill just the normal group of us, then swarms and swarms of randos started showing up. last year to the day Jen had a huge gigantic party with every memeber of our graduating class, aparently one person said something and everyone found out assuming that it was going to be a harty part #2 so they all showed up for a repeat preformance. it was mostly fun, partly crazy, silly drama. blah..


so today Katie's 20th birthday! also the day of Liz's arrival to MA. emily and I left at 10 to pick her up at Logan. We had a picturesque reunion at the airport running into a slow motion embrace, pretty awesome. On our way home we stopped in Groton at katies family bday extravaganza. then at friendlys to visit Jen and onward to jumpin juice and java to see olivia. afterward all the girls came back here, we were graced with the presence of Liz's mom and dad who we hadnt seen in 2 year, i was so happy to see her mom that i started tearing up.. i want them to move back so baaad! afterwards i showed them my artwork from the past 2 years and we had dinner and spent the whole night rememicing. its so much fun having us all back together, its like nothing has changed.

tomorrow day one of session two at camp. loves it. haha


<3 goodnightt

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...when you least expect it.

so complete 180 my life has taken
im done with biology and in utter euphoria
i love working at summer camp and i love the people i work with
i even love the campers... and they def. love me, hah
i had a great night last night at emilys
a bunch of old friends came. and my newish friend showed up.
so Ems house will be free game in a couple of weeks
hopefully the summer will stay at this pace.

nice nice nice
kbye. :D

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great weekend!
applewild orientation psyched me up for camp,
i love the people i work with.
camp officially begins on monday.
i'm instructing: abracadabra, finders keepers, and mad scince jr.
no art. bummer. mowhellio.
afterwards was greg's college grad party.
i enjoy thoes "family" parties so much.
drinking with my psudeo-siblings is my favorite.
i got to hang out with casey a lot, hes been such a good big brother/friend recently, i dont know what i would do without him.
hes really been a help this summer.
i talked to kdon and we are going to plan a trip to LI, I'm dying to go.
hopefully we'll put it into the works soon.
emily also is starting to plan a cruise for us girls over chirstmas break.
that would be rediculously amazing.
i hope it works out.

and my routine the past few days has been:
gym
pool & lunch with the girls
then work or class
and whatever after.
not so bad.
make plans with me, kthanks!

off to little people big world :)
g'night <3

but its been the hardest
thing that I've ever done
...I guess that means I'm lucky.